Waiting for my seafarer to sign off his duty

I just felt so sad

Saw my colleagues' husbands picking them up from work
Saw couples getting on the train together
Me going home to nobody

I just felt so terrible

Groceries shopping at cold storage
Deciding which vegetables, chicken or cheese to buy

While chatting about the horrible boss she has
He annoys her more with teasers

I just felt so lonely

Girlfriends spending time with parents
Husbands, boyfriends or nieces
Me with my teddy and puffy
Trying to figure out what to cook for my one-pax lunch

I just felt so lost

Taking the train on weekends
Watching movies with a dozen of couples
Damn, I am the odd one out
Nobody is munching my popcorn away?

I am worried all the time

When no calls is the routine
Emails received latter then the sent
Waiting for assurance just to know that
He is working hard onboard

Many wonder what it's like to be a seafarer
But nobody wonder what its like to be me?

The seafarer's partner of a decade..